Time for another "Keeping It Real" post!
Here are my latest truths . . . in no particular order.
The truth is . . . my heart is so very heavy for the people in Aurora, Colorado. I haven't put the TV on or watched much of the news about the killings, because . . . I can't. But I am praying for the victims, and for their families. I am reading a little online, but I can't bring myself to watch any footage of the scene. I don't understand. I will never understand.
The truth is . . . that even though I am not working right now, I still need to get away. To leave the house and the stresses that come with it behind. To just get in my car, and drive. And very soon . . . I'll be doing just that. The girls and I will be joining Phil on a work trip again. And although this trip may not be as glamorous as when we joined him in Puerto Rico . . . it will still bring us a bit of adventure along the way. I can't wait to get in the car, and go.
The truth is . . . I give myself very little credit for being a "stay at home" mom right now. Very little credit for what I am doing day after day. Very little credit for being a contributing partner in this home. The guilt over not working the now past year (yes, I celebrated my anniversary from being laid off last week) is getting to me. I know I am doing wonderful things in this time with my daughters . . . but the truth is, I feel like a loser.
The truth is . . . I haven't painted in a month. If you saw the work table in my studio, you would swear it was part of an episode of Hoarders. Ok, maybe not quite that bad . . . but it is piled high with toys and books and things of the girls, and has not a sign of art anywhere near it. I feel creative in my soul, but the days this summer don't offer much time for me to get down there. When I return from our little adventure, that is going to be the first thing I do.
The truth is . . . I didn't go to the gym this week. I planned on going Tuesday, but the hot weather has me completely and totally blah . . . I'm praying for some cooler temperatures, soon.
The truth is . . . I'm in a funk today. But it's ok. It won't last. It never does. Because . . . even in all my happiness, I sometimes can be down. And that, my friends, is keeping it real.
Wishing you Real Happiness in your weekend, loves. Be back soon with more!
Hugs and Peace!